W.I.W

There we were, under thousands of stars gazing and talking. What’s in for us? What’s down that road? Did you intend for this to happen? He asked. I didn’t, did you? I asked back. No, it was God’s natural way…  I smiled. I wasn’t looking at him, I was looking at the stars and even if I can’t see his face, I felt there was sincerity in it. At the back of my mind, at the pounding of my heart, I felt the voice of my God telling me, daughter… this is it. I looked far away and decided to hold back anything I would want to feel. Dumbfounded, I sit still looking at the vast ocean as if the distance of the moon at the end of the sea line is immeasurable.

I allowed time to pass by just to see if all this was just a spur of the moment. I acted numb and as if nothing happened the following days shooing any emotional feel girls would feel in the hype of a“would-be” relationship. I spent my days like a horse whose eyes were covered at the sides to make him focused of just the straight road ahead – with no distractions. But all those were futile. I did try, but I had to admit something really is here welling up in my heart.

There we were again, back in the same scene gazing and talking again. What’s in for us? What’s down that road? Should we do it or take things in stride? Spending time in quiet prayer and seeking away from each other… there was one thing we both decided to do. We both want to Walk it well. No rush…. Since the Lord gave it to us naturally… we’ll do things, we’ll decide things according to His leading for us. I was surprised that I was talking to the same person I used to call “boy”… he was now talking like a man… different from the way I thought he’d be. As he talked my head turned and then I looked at his eyes. There’s something here I didn’t see before.

I walked thousand roads like these many times before and they ended up hurting me. I didn’t want that to happen this time. He’s had his own share of indignant events. So we both decided that we’ll not push too hard but all we have to do is act naturally, with much prayer… no…with much much much prayer. And if the Lord brought us together naturally, then we’d take each step only according to how He’ll direct us. To do that, we need unceasing prayer, careful watch of our own character and trustful openness.  We really want to walk it well.

Walk it well. It means striving to work out our differences maintaining our individuality. It means complementing each other with strength when one has lost the power to go on. It means facing things from outside forces that may break us down. It means handling our own weakness and humbly learning to improve and rise above it. Walking it well means a lot for the both of us. And if we don’t walk with our Master, we’ll both lose the step. We’d get lost… until heartaches happen all over again.

Yes, maybe this is God’s right time for me, when suddenly he sees me in a different light. This happened now that I’m alive, enjoying my relationship with Him and realizing what He wants for me to do even though I was stubborn and hard headed. This is my time, our time… but it’s just beginning.

Question is where would we be at the end of this journey? We don’t know yet, we both agree we’re not rushing. We would rather walk slowly… feel every breath of fresh air in joy and every sweat in damp air when things get tough. We’d like to really see for ourselves who we are individually and who we are together.  We’re not perfect but we’d like to enjoy the ride of imperfectness and blunders. Learning and standing up from it all. We really don’t know what’s ahead. No one knows. But He does! And we can only do this if we hold the hand of the One who brought our hands together. With Him we want to see what’s really out there for us. With Him we want to know His purpose, His heart and His direction…We want to feel the rhythm of His own timing for us. With Him, from here on… we want to Walk It Well.