For three months now I’m learning to keep a low profile with you and be quiet. I know you needed the space so I respected it. I was sensitive enough to know that you cannot afford any other pressures other than what you have now so I kept my space. In this space between us a lot of things changed in me. It allowed me to absorb who I really am and to see my God in a different plane. During this space, I learned to love my God more than I love you. My God asked me to carry my cross daily and see that I can do nothing without Him. I was able to bear it out without you but God kept me company and kept me running through life. I learned to be thankful in everything. I learned to thank the Lord for all that occurred between us and for just how much you showed me you care.
During this space, I learned to appreciate the good mornings you send my way. You may fail not to a couple of times but each early morning you say that, it felt like receiving a windfall from God. I learned to understand that that’s just how you want it to be and I tried as hard as I could to understand the things you have to do. I remember you telling me 5 months ago that I just have to just be here. And so I did.
Despite this space, I was there watching you shine. I was at the sidelines praying hard that He keeps you in the palm of His hands. You know that. That’s what I tell you early everyday after your good mornings.
Even with the great realizations and transformation that occurred in me whilst we had this space in between us… I must admit I miss you. I tried to keep myself an arms length but deep inside somehow I felt we were never really invisible. Sorry for missing you. Sorry for everything that occurred before this. But these months of distance somehow made me see things at a different view.
Thank you for the good mornings… somehow that, words spoken before, prayers and God’s love are just the only things that hold the space in between us.
Somehow, in wonderful ways…I know that this space in between us will be broken… and that God will erase it and will bring us back together again.
